Thursday, October 13, 2005
Doesn't play well with others
I've been working hard on my personal connections this year. I think I've made serious headway in relating with people...I'm certainly more transparent, more quick to laugh, more trusting than I have been for a long time.
This has been a bad week, however. I seem to be miscommunicating with everyone. I've upset, frayed nerves, overstepped boundaries and doubtlessly (in this self-indulgent, whiny fantasy) caused some other minor damage. I've accidently reformatted a harddrive, but it forgave. And I've never caused a book to seek vindication.
I get frustrated by my inability to communicate myself well. I get frustrated when my thoughts and comments damage. Sometimes they're meant to cut -- that's part of friendship, but sometimes they cut when I don't intend it. Perhaps I just need to remember my Kempis and keep my mouth shut.
I have some hope because I know I've come a long way with my friends this year. I'm glad of the journey -- thanks for putting up with me.
Feel free to point out any blindspots; I can only work with what I have.
"Open criticism is better than unexpressed love. Wounds made by a friend are intended to help, but an enemy's kisses are too much to bear." Proverbs 27
